每天每天， 我重复着一样的东西。

没有一点新鲜感。

其实有时候真的真的很想辉到过去。

在这里的生活没什么好。

只为了自由， 拼命往外跑。

三更半夜不睡觉，跟朋友去喝茶， 讲话，聊天。

其实都是废话，没有用的东西。

我很想象以前一样，参加各种活动。

领导人。

尽管我知道自己其实不是很懂，但是我很享受那种带领人的感觉。

这里？

哼～

不可能。

一个两个酱爱出风头。

其实不是很好的意见，讲出来了好像很厉害那样。

谁知道我脑袋里早就想到了。

明明很想帮忙，却整天被人拒绝。

只因他想自己完成，拿功劳？

不明白不了解。

这里的世界好无聊。

这里的人，我不喜欢～！！！！！

去死的～！ 跳楼！

i feel glad watching every friends in my life having a good partner beside them..


wish you all the best and happy..
till the day we end~

the first photo we took together...

first month~<3

when we went shooting~r

i love this the most because i'm damm pretty~

nah__ asked me to do stupid things la!!

james & julia / jackson & joey / me and you / baba and mami~<3<3

B~~  0.o

happy aniversary to myself and my si to pui_

already two months we get together...

although mami don't approve me and him...

but still i get together with him..

i told mami i will listen to her..

every single word he said..

but..

mami, i'm so sorry..

it doesn't mean i don't want to listen to you..

it's just hard for me to seperate with him without any arguement. 

i felt abondon..

by my friends..

the first month in college i had lots of friends..

but now..

i can't even find one to tell my secret..

where were all my friends been?

i'm still there..

but they had changed..

4 of us been very good friends before..

but now... 

i feel headache to go into you all..

you stay at tbr, you stay at hostel..

you can go out together just in a few minutes but i still need to take bus or cab..

when i'm already bankrap..

you guys went out without me..

soon, the feeling changed..

only you three are best friends..

i'm not..

i can't even understand what language you're using..

is that just because i'm far apart, i'm bankrap, then i have to sacrifice friends?

i scare you... a lot..

i'm trying best to mix with you..

if cannot..

then.. no more~

I'm not happy here..

life is fun, but fun doesn't mean happy.. 

ITS TIME TO SAY

I MISS YOU______<3<3<3




yap_
its time for me to say i miss you_
i miss you now__
how much did i wish to post in facebook but__
mami got facebook account and i think she doesnt approve our realtionship yet__

suddenly i felt sad when i saw jess in kevin's house_
sitting in his house and the feeling is like that's also her home__

i wish i could do that too__
i wish i can call you in front of mami baba__
i wish i can continue texting you_

but what can i do_
i cant do anything to get mami's appoval__
T.T

B_
i seriously wish we can have an open relationship_
why they can easily get parent's appoval_?
but i couldnt_?
how long should i wait to get the word "yes" from baba_?
how i wish i can cry loudly in front of everyone saying im suffering_
how i wish i can tell kor kor about everything but__

you know i know__

i know its no changes between you and me_
maybe i'm not your girlfriend_
i cant hold you_
i cant hug you_
i cant kiss you__
i cant bully you officially__
what i wish is only normal__
like a normal couple__
can hold hands in the public_
can call you my dear in front of friends__
can throw my stuff and force you to hold it___
and i can walk easily like a queen__
in others__

then when i get back your house__
i will sayang you__
i help you in doing everything__
i mess up the room and some sort like scolding you and ask you to clean the mess__

why it happened in such a sudden__?
mami_
you said you won stop me if i have a boyfriend__
but now__
you din asked me to stop our friendship_
but you did asked us to stop our relationship__
i did blame you_
i did hate you__
the first time i told you about my beloved__
the first time i wanted to tell everyone that he is my BOYFRIEND___
but you ruined it__
mami___
girls might get hurt easily__
but what they get in the end__
they might feel__
" at least i tried"__
but now__
i got no chance to say "i tried"__

you hurt me__
and you hurt him___
i cried__
and so did him__
he was dropping his tears in front of me__
i knew he dun want me to see it__
but no ideas__
we were skyping and i was watching at him__
i can see his eyes turn red__
and tears dropped__
what for__?
why you want to hurt us like this___?
i know its for my good_
but if i choose the way__
cant you just leave me__?
i miss him__
damm much___

what to do now__?
although we still can hang out together___
but something goes different__

what relationship between me and you__?
can i ask this question_??
this question bother me a lot_
what the hell happen___
=.=~


yes_
you hold me you hug me you kissed me__?
and so_?
but i'm not your girlfriend and you're not my boyfriend__
what the hell relationship are us__?
you care about me_
i know__
i do care about you also__
but seriously__
what i mind about is the status_
if__
what if i say now there's a boy chasing me__
can i accept him since me and you are not couple___
right_?


you can take the initiative to do anything you want__
but since when you do__??
excuse me__??
sometimes_
you won hold me if i dun hold you_
i hate the fuxking feeling__
i felt like i'm WTH a cheap girl__
FML_!! i hate you__
i wish to EML______
but because of you__
i CANT_!!!!

ps : FMY = fuxk my life
      EML = enjoy my life