Beyonce- Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/beyonce/listen.html ]
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

OH now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own
My Own

有時候還滿羨慕kevin&jess的~
心思細膩的kevin總是遷就著jess~
也不是說我的他不好~
就是沒有那麼一點點的浪漫~
我們和他們的difference就是公開和地下
很明顯， 他們的戀情是公佈全天下的。
我們的就躲躲藏藏。
分別在這裡。
我很想要有一個浪漫的男朋友。
好想好想。
T.T

祝你們，幸福快樂。

原来 ，要一个男生哄一个女生，  很难。

看到酱的照片，心情，好回点了吧？

应该好回点了。

有时候，我们都很清楚知道谁喜欢你，谁不喜欢你。
但是你的思绪，好难理解。
你看似好人，但有时候你是坏人。
你看似跟朋友们很好，但其实你都没什么喜欢他们。
我喜欢跟你相处，因为你很会开玩笑。
但是有时候，你的玩笑中，似乎映射着某个人，或某件事。
很多时候，你和她单独相处，我就会开始怀疑，你们是否在讨论我。
你们，再说我的什么坏话吗？
我懂，有时候是我自己胡思乱想。
但是，你们的行为举止，看上去就是在逃避我。


对不起，我相信你知道我说着的人是你。
我相信，我真的宁愿相信我们的友谊是真的。
我们的友谊，是真的吗？
我可以相信你吗？
看过了你的blog，我知道你也是个像我的女生。
喜欢在一个人的时候发呆，想东西。
只是，你比我会想。
你成熟多了，你懂得在对的时候作对的事情。
我却每次都在不对的时候做不对的事情。


如果，我曾近让你不开心，不快乐，请原谅我。
对不起。

hope..

friendship  forever...<3<3

每天每天， 我重复着一样的东西。

没有一点新鲜感。

其实有时候真的真的很想辉到过去。

在这里的生活没什么好。

只为了自由， 拼命往外跑。

三更半夜不睡觉，跟朋友去喝茶， 讲话，聊天。

其实都是废话，没有用的东西。

我很想象以前一样，参加各种活动。

领导人。

尽管我知道自己其实不是很懂，但是我很享受那种带领人的感觉。

这里？

哼～

不可能。

一个两个酱爱出风头。

其实不是很好的意见，讲出来了好像很厉害那样。

谁知道我脑袋里早就想到了。

明明很想帮忙，却整天被人拒绝。

只因他想自己完成，拿功劳？

不明白不了解。

这里的世界好无聊。

这里的人，我不喜欢～！！！！！

去死的～！ 跳楼！

i feel glad watching every friends in my life having a good partner beside them..


wish you all the best and happy..
till the day we end~

the first photo we took together...

first month~<3

when we went shooting~r

i love this the most because i'm damm pretty~

nah__ asked me to do stupid things la!!

james & julia / jackson & joey / me and you / baba and mami~<3<3

B~~  0.o

happy aniversary to myself and my si to pui_

already two months we get together...

although mami don't approve me and him...

but still i get together with him..

i told mami i will listen to her..

every single word he said..

but..

mami, i'm so sorry..

it doesn't mean i don't want to listen to you..

it's just hard for me to seperate with him without any arguement. 

i felt abondon..

by my friends..

the first month in college i had lots of friends..

but now..

i can't even find one to tell my secret..

where were all my friends been?

i'm still there..

but they had changed..

4 of us been very good friends before..

but now... 

i feel headache to go into you all..

you stay at tbr, you stay at hostel..

you can go out together just in a few minutes but i still need to take bus or cab..

when i'm already bankrap..

you guys went out without me..

soon, the feeling changed..

only you three are best friends..

i'm not..

i can't even understand what language you're using..

is that just because i'm far apart, i'm bankrap, then i have to sacrifice friends?

i scare you... a lot..

i'm trying best to mix with you..

if cannot..

then.. no more~

I'm not happy here..

life is fun, but fun doesn't mean happy.. 

ITS TIME TO SAY

I MISS YOU______<3<3<3




yap_
its time for me to say i miss you_
i miss you now__
how much did i wish to post in facebook but__
mami got facebook account and i think she doesnt approve our realtionship yet__

suddenly i felt sad when i saw jess in kevin's house_
sitting in his house and the feeling is like that's also her home__

i wish i could do that too__
i wish i can call you in front of mami baba__
i wish i can continue texting you_

but what can i do_
i cant do anything to get mami's appoval__
T.T

B_
i seriously wish we can have an open relationship_
why they can easily get parent's appoval_?
but i couldnt_?
how long should i wait to get the word "yes" from baba_?
how i wish i can cry loudly in front of everyone saying im suffering_
how i wish i can tell kor kor about everything but__

you know i know__

i know its no changes between you and me_
maybe i'm not your girlfriend_
i cant hold you_
i cant hug you_
i cant kiss you__
i cant bully you officially__
what i wish is only normal__
like a normal couple__
can hold hands in the public_
can call you my dear in front of friends__
can throw my stuff and force you to hold it___
and i can walk easily like a queen__
in others__

then when i get back your house__
i will sayang you__
i help you in doing everything__
i mess up the room and some sort like scolding you and ask you to clean the mess__

why it happened in such a sudden__?
mami_
you said you won stop me if i have a boyfriend__
but now__
you din asked me to stop our friendship_
but you did asked us to stop our relationship__
i did blame you_
i did hate you__
the first time i told you about my beloved__
the first time i wanted to tell everyone that he is my BOYFRIEND___
but you ruined it__
mami___
girls might get hurt easily__
but what they get in the end__
they might feel__
" at least i tried"__
but now__
i got no chance to say "i tried"__

you hurt me__
and you hurt him___
i cried__
and so did him__
he was dropping his tears in front of me__
i knew he dun want me to see it__
but no ideas__
we were skyping and i was watching at him__
i can see his eyes turn red__
and tears dropped__
what for__?
why you want to hurt us like this___?
i know its for my good_
but if i choose the way__
cant you just leave me__?
i miss him__
damm much___

what to do now__?
although we still can hang out together___
but something goes different__

what relationship between me and you__?
can i ask this question_??
this question bother me a lot_
what the hell happen___
=.=~


yes_
you hold me you hug me you kissed me__?
and so_?
but i'm not your girlfriend and you're not my boyfriend__
what the hell relationship are us__?
you care about me_
i know__
i do care about you also__
but seriously__
what i mind about is the status_
if__
what if i say now there's a boy chasing me__
can i accept him since me and you are not couple___
right_?


you can take the initiative to do anything you want__
but since when you do__??
excuse me__??
sometimes_
you won hold me if i dun hold you_
i hate the fuxking feeling__
i felt like i'm WTH a cheap girl__
FML_!! i hate you__
i wish to EML______
but because of you__
i CANT_!!!!

ps : FMY = fuxk my life
      EML = enjoy my life

wrong_!!

totally wrong_!!

if i like xxx, i won't let you sleep at my shoulder, won't always bite you, won't let you take my jacket back home for few days, won't ask you why you suddenly feel angry, won't hold your hand when you feel cold in the cinema 

AND

won't message you with the jacket cover half of my face except my eyes and the jacket is full of your smell________<3

one last thing___

i won't always sit beside you or opposite you if i like xxx___ 

its not really that sweet to hear this_

but__

its considered as a promise to me_

i felt released_

and little bit happy when i saw this message__

congratez to DING_

and thank you for saying this to make me feel __

you're always beside me___

可不可以不要在我才刚发现喜欢上你的时候_
喜欢上别人_?

我讨厌我自己_
容易喜欢上人_
我必须承认_
被我喜欢上的都会很辛苦_
因为我是百分百的小孩子_
我容易吃醋, 容易生气, 我很在乎我想在乎的那个人_
对_
容易吃醋容易生气, 但是我也很容易逗回_
可不可以麻烦你在把我弄生气后_
花一点点的时间把我逗回_
你从来就不会做这些事情_
每次主动的都是我_
可不可以有一次主动的是你_
自己生气, 自己不开心, 然后在自己把自己逗回_
好笑_!!
我很明显跟你讲我在生气_
你就不在乎不在乎的继续做你的东西_
好啦_
承认, 我不是你的谁_

你是自由的_
所以你可以偶尔偶尔逗逗别人_
偶尔找我玩玩?

讨厌我自己经不起一点点的诱惑_
生气了_
你只要稍微看我一眼, 低声问我一句 : 做么你?
我就好回了_

凭我的第六感_
你应该是喜欢她的_
一个小小的动作就可以显示出你喜欢的认识谁_
我_
好像有点_
伤心_
石头压着心_
很不舒服_
怎么办_?

I LIKE YOU___
JUST LIKE YOU_
I DON'T MEAN WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU_
BUT I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU I LIKE YOU_
I KNOW_

I'M NOT YOUR TYPE_
YOUR TYPE IS_
GIRLISH_
CUTE_
AND SWEET_

AND_
MY TYPE IS_
HANDSOME_
TALL__
AND ROMANTIC_

I CAN'T REACH YOUR TARGET_
AND YOU ALSO CAN'T REACH MY TARGET_
BUT HOW IF I GOT THE FEELING TOWARDS YOU?
LEAVE IT_?
OR CONFESS_?

HARD__

YOU KEEP ASKING ME ABOUT MY TYPE_
I DON'T WANT TO TELL YOU SINCE I KNOW IF I SAID_
ITS TOO BAD TO YOU_
I DON'T KNOW WHETHER YOU HAVE THE FEELING TOWARDS ME OR NOT_
BUT_
STILL I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU_

I'M NOT IN YOUR WORLD_
BUT YOU'RE IN MY WORLD_

EVERYTHING HAPPENED AROUND ME MAKE ME THINK OF YOU_
I DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDY ALTHOUGH I JUST LEFT 3 DAYS TO STUDY_

CIN ZAK___
><~

Jay Chou - Back to the past 周杰倫 - 回到过去

不知道男生們有沒有發現
越高的女生
越希望被保護

真的很希望他們知道這個事實
不知道我是屬於哪個category
朋友們都說我很大
而不是高
我希望我是高而不是大

大
真的很傷害我
我屬於超級小女生
我很喜歡到處黏人
我喜歡撒嬌
很喜歡
問題出在
我很大
別人看了很礙眼
他們會覺得很噁心

當你想要靠近他們時
他們會覺得很有壓力
你明明不想
但是因為你的身高跟身材
他們會躲避你

_____________________________________________________________________

I THINK I EASILY FALL IN LIKE WITH SOMEONE
CONFUSE HUH?
FALL IN LIKE_?
YEAH_
IS LIKE_
NOT LOVE
SO DUDEE_
I KNOW

JUST BECAUSE OF ONE DAY REHEARSAL
I CAN FALL IN LIKE WITH SOMEONE AND CARE ABOUT HIM A LOT
I HATE THIS FEELING
SUPER HATE

I KNOW THAT'S NOT A GOOD THING BUT SERIOUSLY
I CAN'T CONTROL

I KNEW HE GOT HIS FRIENDS
HIS OWN LIFESTYLE
BUT I CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OUT FROM HIM

DANN

STUPID IDIOT

I DON'T LIKE SEEING HE TAKING PHOTOS WITH OTHER GIRLS
I KNOW TO HIM
THEY ARE JUST FRIENDS
OR MAYBE
HE LIKES ONE OF THEM
THAT'S WHY HE KEEP GOING OUT WITH THEM_?

CONFUSING MYSELF
I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE TO MAKE ME NORMAL
BUT
THESE FEW DAYS I REALLY MOODY BECAUSE OF HIM
THINK A LOT ABOUT HIM

SEEING MY FRIENDS GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP
TAKING CARE OF SOMEONE
OR SOMEONE IS TAKING CARE OF HIM / HER
SUPER ENVIOUS
I OSO WANT A BOYFRIEND
WHY I CAN'T FIND A BOYFRIEND
AND THE BOYFRIEND IS TYPE OF MY DREAM MAN
MY DREAM MAN = A WONDERFUL MAN
HE MUST BE TALENTED
HE HAS TO BE TALL
AT LEAST SAME HEIGHT WITH ME_?
HE HAS TO KNOW MUSIC
AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT
HE HAS TO MORE KNOWLEDGEABLE THAN ME
KNOWS MORE THAN ME

WHERE TO FIND A WONDERFUL MAN LIKE THIS?
I KNOW ITS A LOT IN THE WORLD
BUT
WHERE TO FIND A GUY THAT WILL LOVE MY STYLE
LOVE MY WAY TO TALK
LOVE MY WAY TO PLAY
LOVE MY FRIENDS
LOVE MY FAMILY
LOVE ME
DON'T TELL ME ITS POSSIBLE TO FIND ONE
I KNOW ITS POSSIBLE
BUT
WHEN CAN I GET THIS GUY?
THOUSAND YEARS LATER?
CAN I GET IT NOW?
I WANT TAKE CARE BY SOMEONE
ITS REALLY PATHETIC WHEN YOU SEE EVERYONE AROUND YOU TALKING PHONE IN THE MIDNIGHT BUT YOU ARE STILL ALONE THERE
I NEED A HUG
I NEED A HAND TO HOLD ME TIGHT
CACAT_!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

突然发现 原来有个部落格是件好事
很多东西想说
但发现找不到人说
很多东西想问
但又找不到人问的时候
部落格
真的很有用

原本应该乖乖做我的assignment
快快赶完了就可以睡觉
但是一到家
接到电话
心情就便得很烂
我不想出去
放学后直接回家就代表了我不想出去
干嘛一直说服我叫我出去
我说了我不要
我不要_!!
很烦
明知道拒绝你一定会被你讲
但是还是拒绝了

懒懒的坐在电脑前
没有心情理会assignment
听听歌, 看看mv
走_!
睡觉_

睡又睡不着
反反复复
躺着看看小说

出去找vanka吃饭
jess 心情不好
我不知道为什么
但是总觉得跟我有关系
不知道
什么话都没有说
就拜拜回家了
很多东西向说
很多东西向问
没有机会
算了

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Hebe田馥甄－你太猖狂（附加歌詞）

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