ITS TIME TO SAY

I MISS YOU______<3<3<3




yap_
its time for me to say i miss you_
i miss you now__
how much did i wish to post in facebook but__
mami got facebook account and i think she doesnt approve our realtionship yet__

suddenly i felt sad when i saw jess in kevin's house_
sitting in his house and the feeling is like that's also her home__

i wish i could do that too__
i wish i can call you in front of mami baba__
i wish i can continue texting you_

but what can i do_
i cant do anything to get mami's appoval__
T.T

B_
i seriously wish we can have an open relationship_
why they can easily get parent's appoval_?
but i couldnt_?
how long should i wait to get the word "yes" from baba_?
how i wish i can cry loudly in front of everyone saying im suffering_
how i wish i can tell kor kor about everything but__

you know i know__

i know its no changes between you and me_
maybe i'm not your girlfriend_
i cant hold you_
i cant hug you_
i cant kiss you__
i cant bully you officially__
what i wish is only normal__
like a normal couple__
can hold hands in the public_
can call you my dear in front of friends__
can throw my stuff and force you to hold it___
and i can walk easily like a queen__
in others__

then when i get back your house__
i will sayang you__
i help you in doing everything__
i mess up the room and some sort like scolding you and ask you to clean the mess__

why it happened in such a sudden__?
mami_
you said you won stop me if i have a boyfriend__
but now__
you din asked me to stop our friendship_
but you did asked us to stop our relationship__
i did blame you_
i did hate you__
the first time i told you about my beloved__
the first time i wanted to tell everyone that he is my BOYFRIEND___
but you ruined it__
mami___
girls might get hurt easily__
but what they get in the end__
they might feel__
" at least i tried"__
but now__
i got no chance to say "i tried"__

you hurt me__
and you hurt him___
i cried__
and so did him__
he was dropping his tears in front of me__
i knew he dun want me to see it__
but no ideas__
we were skyping and i was watching at him__
i can see his eyes turn red__
and tears dropped__
what for__?
why you want to hurt us like this___?
i know its for my good_
but if i choose the way__
cant you just leave me__?
i miss him__
damm much___

what to do now__?
although we still can hang out together___
but something goes different__